MyLife..MyWay

D: 11-01-2020

How I want my life to be…though I know most of the things always goes against our plan..still I want to document how exactly I want my life to be………………………..

I have lots of dreams…basically may be I m just a dreamy person,but always felt like oh damn I am ambitious,well no not at all I realized

A person should have one fixed aim,trust me it makes your life discisplined..and yes I totally believe if you like something and do with dedication you defintely achieve it,this line is cent percent true.

But unfortunately I am 27 years with no fixed dream or aim…this is the only sad and depressing part of my life ,which only my god knows.I have spent many nights and days just thinking on what should I do, am I a irresponsible person that I am not able to still figure out my aim.What is stopping me ,I don’t know.

I work in IT company,fairly good amount of salary but according to my degree and age defintly not good,but I don’t know why I love to write.

So basically evrytime this “I don’t know” phrase is with me,and sometimes make me feel like failure.

But I don’t want to make myself feel failure,currently I am writing this and has tears in my eyes,just hoping that one day I reach my goal and get the life which I am going to write down and surely gonna save and print this material with me whole life.

I am married now and living with best husband of the world,trust me when I write BEST I literally mean it..because the same BEST word I never used for my dad,but why…I will write this also  in later part of this document.but yes I love my dad because of him I am into existence and attained degree because yes money is important to survice and get your degree and its just because of dad I have gained that,he made me married the guy whom I loved by spending lacs of money,but still I am not able to write the word BEST for him….i know this is sad but this is the fact o my life .

So here I start with my life…

I want to design my life my way….god has designed me and as some people say your future is decided by god,when you gonna die even that is decided by god,but you never know what you gonna draft about your life it will come exactly that way right J

So first I am INDIAN

And in India people run behind Government jobs ,even my family ,brother they feel yes that’s most resectable job,I know this too,you get lots of salutes,holidays ,respect at the end of day

But my heart never felt it that yes this is the job I want…I really don’t knw why,okay now that doesn’t mean I am not aware of it,living a closed life ,an inafamous famous life,serving the corrupt leaders,a country is corrupt now,no matter how much you try either you will be transferred or end up doing suicide..but yes if you listen to the orders by doing heads down you will get good appraisals

But now this doesn’t mean I hate government job and love the my private sector job… I am not even satisfied even after earning a good amount

Somewhere nowdays I have the feeling of failure in me,but I don’t want to give up,because I never want my life to be boring,sad or depressed.

I want happy,positive life and serve my family not the country,I know I am sounding selfish but life mein na kuch galat nahi kuch sahi nahi bus jaisa jeena chahte ho jiyo,obviously well planned but that doesn’t require to you to plan evrything…just these things finance + Family love health + A happy job( I know jobs are not so easy but being in the one which make you happy,which makes your Monday like the most wanted day that’s when you can tell you are in the perfect job--- this is where I failed or may be successful in coming years ).

I always want to thank god and do most of the time I feel,because note down this fact that no matter how much positive you are,if your environment is not positive you will end up being negative or may be trapped in an environment where you want to fly like a eagle but end up being a termite,and god has given me the best person to spend my life with.

I never want to copy anyone style,or writings I want to make myself a self made brand

I don’t want lavish life but a life where I have perfect home of my own interiored by me

A job which may be tiring but still the happy one,to come home hoping seeing and spending time with my family.

Going on vaccations to most of the beautiful places,clicking pictures and enjyoing life and most important to set the example of BEST person in the eys of my children.

Now what BEST means this is the most important word of mine in my life and for me it means this :

To communicate with your loved ones their problems,happiness,make them feel you are for them ,with them anytime,they are with you all the time and make them do the same and be the one.

To make them realize Money is defintly important but humanity is most important,okay now I am not telling to be fool because nowdays you need to ,you have to be smart,just never close eyes ,make it wide open to fight with those dirty things.

Be grounded,be good to parents..they are superiors.

I don’t where life will take me…but everyday I just want happy hormones ot be released,I want my MIND to feel fresh evryday that’s when I can say I won.

I know life throws you difficult situations at you…there are ups and downs …but I just want my mind to be POSTIVELY CHARGED ♥️

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